heys! its been long since i last blogged...
hmmm.. stuff have been great until recently...

hmm.. i guess is more of family problems bahs... lols...
coz i don't know whats gotten into them.
and i have becomed so irritable to everyone...
so i have been trying my best to smile and talk like before...
but it just feels so fake... damn...
so here. if you think i have a perfect family,
then you thot wrong.

sigh... I actually am starting to hate my life.
too much pressure from my dad.
just becoz i got into EEE in the same school as him doesn't mean he have to force me to study every freaking day of my present hols right?
gosh... i dun even have some breathing space...
it's at this kinda time that makes me wish ill of him
grgh... sigh... and there just seems to be so much friction between me and everyone of them
i hate me...
why can't i handle stress better or something?
gosh. and i wish my dad will just grow up and appreciate the people ard him!
when i start work and become a somebody i promise to bring my mum to shopping and spa every freaking day.

gosh... i'm so tense i think i can bite off the head of an elephant.
grgh!!! and my dad does stuff behind my back! and he is so mean with his words!!!
i dunno what to say to him anymore... stuff isn't just so simple...
asshole. i hate this! i'm not someone who handles stress and decision making well!
i mean.. haiyos.
i just want this all to end. i dunno how and i suppose to solve this.
but i will find a way.
no matter how hard.
=) coz i know deep down my dad has my best interest.
but he is just too asshole like and too freaking childish and control freak,
can't let me do stuff my way.
gosh. hate this kinda feeling...